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Tuesday, September 30, 2008
10:39 AM to the juniors, you all think u understand. so why not be in my shoe and try it? its not as easy as wat u think. yea, try hard and u'll get it. earn yourself a position? bullshit! how hard am i suppose to go for it? trian everyday? sorry, i have no time and life is short i dun wanna waste it on training for something which has no use after this 3 yrs of school. i would rather do something more practical something i would enjoy more. which i feel much much happier. isnt dat better? more worthwhile? training wif u all is fun sometimes. but most of the time it jus reminds me of how lousy i am in front of u all. i dun wanna go for something which i see no point in. try hard? so? wat can i get? seriously lah, at most jus 1 yr of competition. truth is i dun feel the bond wif u all. i feel outcasted whenever im wif u all. we're a team? no, u all are a team. i dun belong there. i dreaded every singe training. so wats the point of gg? shouldnt netball be something enjoyable? why does it seems lyk a torture to me now? every training is lyk a torture. im dreading the start of it and looking forward to the end. passion for netball?? sorry, i dun feel as passionate about it anymore. i use to love it in sec sch. where all my teamates are dere. jy, sm, sy, pq. i miss them i miss the old netball. where everything we do is fun. results is impt. but the process is even more precious isnt it? but i feel dat in nyp, results is the most impt thing. who cares about the fucking process? all u need is good players. and im not. so why should i be dere to drag the team down. to slow down the whole trng? im the lousiet in the team, and im sure u all feel dat too. jus dat u all dun say it out. to me, netball aint as impt as my dog, bf, family and work. ya, i would rather spend my time wif bf. and why? cause i feel happier! simple?! netball only makes me feel sad. so why should i sarcrifice something enjoyable for something torturous? tell me, would u rather chooose something more fun or something bad? so am i wrong? if so, wat wrong have i done? even if i quit netball, does it affect u all? no it doesnt, in fact its better isnt it? at least u all dunnid to care for my feelings and keep on cheering me up. im a burden to the team, to u all. the SIM match jus shows me how different i am from you all. seriously, are all of us really dat close? do we talk about other things beside netballl? so wats makes u think u understand me? understand wat im gg through? understand how i feel and wat i want? wat shihui say is true, im a loser. and i lyk to avoid the reality. i hate facing it. im quitting nyp netball. lets jus hope we still can remain as frens. Friday, September 26, 2008
10:39 AM boooooooo! stupid rain today! spoil my sentosa trip :( i woke up in the middle of the night and it started raining heavily. so i was hoping it would stop by morning. cause i plan to go sentosa wif p at 10. then it rain till 10!!!!!!! :( there goes my suntan :( anw arrange to meet 1230 at vivo. he was late but i was later =x cabbed down cause he sounded angry =x walk around and i was feeling so freaking tired! seriously lack of sleep. =/ and the must-do when at vivo is see puppies! :D got shetland puppies! so cute! :D the golden retriever oso very cute! :D played arcade again(: our new hobby(: everytime play game lose to him. not fun at all =x bball machine was down! bloody hell! then we took bus to town. freaking long! jammed at chinatown area =/ i was freaking hungry by dinner time cause didnt eat anything the whole day. ate at waraku! the creamy udon nice. but dun really lyk the ramen. went cine buy tix for mirrors! recently watch alot of m18 movies(: heh heh. i look MATURE! not old. while waiting for movie to start went to play arcade again(: saw tiffany and gang. then finally get to play bball! :D mirrors is quite nice. but damn damn damn GROSS! i understand why its M18! super ultra GROSS! =S the progress of the movie not bad lah. abit of thriller plus horror. oh ya, p can mae really scary faces! look totally lyk ghost!!!! =/ scare the hell outta me in cinema lah! walk wif him to ps cause he taking train from dere. he accompany me wait for bus(: i love spending time wif him. but was abit grumpy today due to stupid menses and not enough sleep =/ he say i pms =/ HE BOUGHT A PAIR OF EARRINGS FOR ME! :D CAUSE I SAY I WAN IT BUT NO MONEY. HAHA. SO HAPPY OKAY! :D THANKS DEAREST(:  Wednesday, September 24, 2008
11:42 AM hmm. came upon a blog. something interesting she blog about and totally lyk wat im feeling. "its fcking scary to love someone luh and fcking hurting when he said "maybe we should just remain as good friends" its SO hard to love someone , even harder to let go of someone u love thats why ppl get hurt . hurt again n again n again n again i think i’m kinda getting used to it already just a few days and pain subsides love is like a fcking piercing at ur heart hurts for a few days / weeks den totally seasoned .. meanwhile a needle slowly piercing through ur heart" ya, a needle is slowly piercing through my heart every single moment when im wif him. everything i do i think of him. i can give up everything jus so dat he can be true to me and love me wholeheartedly. ppl says im stupid and dumb for always giving in. but wat to do? im jus so blinded by love. haas. someone even told me this sentence, "now i noe why they say love is blind, u really am blind!" Sunday, September 21, 2008
10:39 PM went out wif cousin to vivo! :D cause she wanna get a dress for her company's DND. as usual, i was late=/ after few hours of shopping we had dinner at asian kitchen! :D
 see the red bean inside? so nice lah! hothot one! :D yayness, a delicious dinner which cost each of us $15 only!!!! for so much food!!! :Dno wonder im fat =/
been spending alot these few days! i need my pay! Friday, September 19, 2008
10:57 PM
     went out wif regina, yuki and jian de at first for dinner. but then saw ariza working. so went to meet her after her work. and then she decided to accompany me and go home late(: we went shopping! and she finally got me my birthday present after 3 mths! a mango t-shirt(: thanks babe! :D   walk around town and we both of our mouths were quote itchy. haha. so we got some food!went for dresert, durian crepe! nice! :D and then she had her sausauge cheese egg crepe. wanted to get waffles at first but too ex. then we shared a bowl of laksa! :D finally did my eyebrow trimming after damn long(: we camwhored alot as u can see. haha. went home at 9 plus and i enjoyed myself! :D Wednesday, September 17, 2008
1:43 PM i'm missing baby greatly :( didnt get to see him the past 2 days :( gonna see him tml(: cant wait(: anw, i'll update wat i did over the weekends when i have the time to. *actually i have the time but jus lazy* :P Friday, September 12, 2008
9:59 AM FRIDAY went to sis's school for mid autumn celebration wif cousin(: reach there quite early and we got some food and settle down. our main purpose dere is to watch her guitar performance and take video! :D
      me and cousin's pretty lanterns(:met p after this. slack at my house for awhile then he went home le. SATURDAY had netball carnival at SIM! played wif the juniors. kesh, jing, shihui and jacq. didnt manage to get into top 4 but we got 5th out of 9 teams. not bad alr lah. considering this is our first time playing together and there were stronger opponents lyk the NTU. jing and sh went to do the rock climbing and we laughed so much! :D 5 of us cabbed to queensway after dat. cause jacq wanna collect her fbt. so i got myself 1 and we proceed to changi airport for popeyes! :D all of us was alr starving lyk hell. cause we didnt have much for breakfast. and then audrey was late and couldnt find her way. so the lunch sort of became dinner. only manage to eat at 5 plus =/  audrey! :Djing went home and the rest went to walk around and chit chat after eating. first from T3 to T2 then the view wasnt dat nice. so we proceed to T1! saw the national soccer goal keeper who was previously from nyp? anw the night scenery is very very pretty! :D we jus sat dere chitchat and watch planes land(:
went to meet 2H peeps at henderson cc for gathering(: played candles and captain ball. very fun! :D i enjoy being wif them! full of laughter. haas then most girls went home. except me, sharry and sinyee plus the guys went for desert. p came to stay over for the night(: met him at hse downstairs after gathering. judy and co. ask us to play bball wif them. so play lor. u can imagine how shag i was. netball in the morning, captain ball at night, bball at midnight! =/ damn tired. we kanna screening from police =/ cause it was lyk 1 plus alr. watch soccer wif p at coffee shop for awhile and went home. bathed and sleep straight away. was such a pig. p was having stomach upset the whole night and vomitting away yet i didnt noe and sleep lyk a pig. felt so bad for not taking care of him =/ Thursday, September 11, 2008
9:53 AM OKOK, MY BLOG IS SO DEAD! CAN PPL PLEASE TAG?! WORDY POST AHEAD. BEWARE! im so loving this hols(: spending so much time wif p and im so happy! :D met him on monday. seen him on tues. met him agn on wed. met for dinner today! :D wat else is better than seeing him everyday? im so so so happy wif life right now :D i dun wan the hols to end pls. WEDNESDAY went over to meet p early in the morning for breakfast. then slack at his hse. he forever sleeping. =/ then i'll sleep oso. hahahahha. then wake up play com games. we played this wacky wheels. and i keep on losing lah. not fun at all. hahaha. *im a sore loser* =p then i had to leave for work. sob sob. :( late for work heck care eat dinner first then start. got this new full timer. he got those kind of qian da face =x he talk quite guai lan leh. dun lyk him sia. stand dere lyk statue liddat. wth. i see him i buay song. when he talk i keep on laughing. reached home watched my qian nv you hun then met jouren for supper! make him wait for me while i watch my show. hahaha. damn mean i noe. brought zayden down oso to see us eat. haha. after dat chitchat for around 1 hr then go back. THURSDAY i was having flu and quite a swollen eyes so didnt go for trng. plus back still hurts abit. but much better after p gave me the deep heat thing to apply(: at first wanna meet cousin for dinner. but last min p say wanna meet so ask him to tag along. but cousin feel weird so she ask me meet him instead =/ i wanna have dinner wif both of them lah. :( then met p at vivo at 7. supposedly at 630. then he late so meet 7 instead. and then i was late =/ decided wat to eat for a long time. in the end ate at kopitiam. p eats alot but doest grow fat!!!! unfair lahhh. he eats lyk much much more than me :( except that i eat abit fo junk food here and dere. hahahahah. he eats $6 worth of hokkien mee. and still can help me finish up abit of leftover fried fish beehoon! pro!!!! went to pet's safari to see puppy(: dats wat we do everytime we at vivo. hahaha. i wanna get another shihtzu lah! they so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!! somemore can keep my zayden company:D anyone wanna buy for me pls? :D the chow chow oso damn cute lah! look lyk soft toy bear bear. ultra cute pls! look so huggable :D went to play arcade after dat. first time playng wif p. we played 3 times of racing and i won once! :D then we played the basketball oso. 216. =/ my shooting getting lousier lah! then play finish around 930. p have to go home alr :( so he sent me to bustop and pei me wait for bus(: going sis's sch tml wif cousin to watch her performance for mid autumn fest(: after dat mayb meeting p? really hope can meet him. hees! am damn happy(: i love you(: looking forward to sunday. our 2mths anniversary! :D <3<3<3 Tuesday, September 9, 2008
3:07 AM FRIDAY went to work and p came to stay over after my work(: i really hate the stpid boss!!!!!! my pay for last month only $258.30!!! so little :( SATURDAY slacked wif p at home. he played wif zayden(: first time lah. the 2 of them so funny(: im glad that p is starting to lyk zayden? he thinks zayden is too barky and smelly. but zayden didnt bark at him on dat day! miracle(: p left at 3 plus? then waked my sis up and we went tiong bahru ajisen for dinner! :D
came back from work and my back started to ache lyk crazy! even had difficulties walking lah! sleep was kinda tough too. SUNDAY breakfast wif sis at hse downstairs and went to work. freaking bored at work lah. wokr form 330 to 1130. no life :( back was still aching and the bloody chair has no back rest! :( MONDAY p was suppose to giv me morning cal at 9 to wake me up but he didnt! and he's the one who said he'll call =/ so i woke up late. prepare till 11 then i called him and he jus woke up! cabbed over to his place and had breakfast. his maid cook maggi mee for both of us. haas. then played wif charcoal(his rabbit) and we took an afternoon nap(: woke up then hurry rush for movie in town. i fell down on the way :( and he was lyk so sweet, ran back home and got a bottle of water for me to wash my leg(: he said he thought i'll cry lyk most girls but i didnt(:   cabbed to cine and saw ariza!!! :D wanted to watch forgetting sarah marshall(m18) didnt manage to get the tixs at first cause the person realise that im actually 17!!! so we got the movie make it happen. then i ask p go exchange tixs at lvl 6! and tada! manage to change and i manage to sneak inside! :D the show is quite nice. quite funny but got abit of sexual content. ate at the jap restaurant iin cine. forgot the name. haas. my pork curry pasta sucks lah! but p's tori karaage cream pasta was not bad. had student meal and total bill was only $20.70! quite affordable bah. went over to workplace to play pool! p had some beer (1 jug+1mug) plus my vodka! p teaches me pool(: then he played wif jimmy. chatted too long and ended up it was quite late. p missed the last train. so after asking jimmy he finally allow us to stay over at his place cause he have 1 extra rm. TUESDAY slept till morning 10 plus then we left. back was still aching lah! so i walked wif a hunched back. and p says i walk lyk liang popo! :( WTH. WTH. WTH. it gotten worse :( mayb shall go see sinseh soon if it continues to hurt tml. p says i pulled some muscles or smth. and i had to sleep wif a bolster underneath my back if not the pain is really intolerable and i cant slp well :( reached back home and continue to sleep till 530! on and off lah. not deep sleep. haas. i miss p terribly. i wan more time wif him :( Tuesday, September 2, 2008
8:18 AM  trng today wif jing, kesh and shihui in the afternoon. school trng was cancelled at first . planning to go watch F&P netball league. then suddenly they say singapore not playing so resume trng! finished trng then jing, kesh and me went amk hub for dessert. me and kesh were so tempted to eat the sambal sotong lah! and i ate this durian ice kacang! i think its nice but kesh and jing says it taste weird =/ boo! i dropped my "essence"! (first photo) i dropped most of the durian paste on the table :( was so sad lahhh. and yet that kesh and jing laugh lyk hell!  Monday, September 1, 2008
9:51 AM i cant imagine how i pass my 5 days of attachment without meeting him! the attachment was drivng me nuts! and giving me high blood pressure! shan't say more. p, the time spent wif u was great. i feel that we're getting closer. are we? hugs(: we're together for 1 month and 18 days(: longest ever in my whole history. lets hope it last longer(:
5:59 AM 1)The person who tagged you is: KESHIA! my grandaughter! :D 2)Your relationship with her is: teammate, frens(: 3)Your 5 impression of her is: crazy, mad, laugh alot, talk alot of crap, the kc girl! 4)The most memorable thing she has done for you: hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. call me ah ma when i wore this ultra high socks! 5)If she becomes your lover, you will: have a shock of my life and die of heart attack! haha. 6)If she becomes your lover, things she will have to improve on will be: ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. 7)If she becomes your enemy, the reason would be: being a bad grandaughter! ahha. 8)The most desired thing you want to do for her now is: hope that her thumb will recover fully! 9)Your overall impression of her is: crazy and fun loving. 10)How do you think people around you feel about you? no idea. 11)The characteristics you love about yourself: haaa. none really. 12)On the contrary,the characteristics you hate about yourself: lazy and slack!!!!!!!!!!!!! 13)The most ideal person you want to be is: be more cheerful and not so lazy. 14)The people that care and like you, say something to them: thanks for all ur concern ppl! really appreciate that. you all are the best!! love you guys! :D 15)Pass this quiz on 5 people you wish to know to know more about you. -kesh (ps do again for me lehh. haas) -regina -ariza -jingyi -shihui |
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