love is a strange and funny thing.

so u dun msg me its my fault?
im testing u?
i was waiting for u.
waiting for ur msg the whole freaking day!
after a bad day at work,
having a ultra bad cramp and
not a single word of comfort from u.

do u even care?
u did say u'll initiate to sms me.
so from monday to wed.
how many? 1!!!!!!!
only 1 single pathetic sms which totally make my day.
jus 1, it can change my day from bad to great.
thats the difference u make in my life.

u may initiate to chat wif me in msn lah.
but of it cant be compared together.
cause its a totally different thing from sms.

i dun wanna text u first cause i dun wanna sound so sticky to u.
i dun wanna disturb u.

u may think dat im sensitive or whatever.
but seriously, think about it.
which girl can accept this.
if i neva online today.
bet u wont text me the whole freaking day.

Friday, August 22, 2008

10:42 PM

i feel so stupid
and i feel so bad towards kesh, jac, jing, shihui.
they ask me to go sch and play netball on sat.
i promise them i'll go.
then when p say he can meet me on sat so i ps them. :(
he said meet me from 1-5.
then now? 1-2?
wats the point?

i hate myself for always giving in.
why cant for once i say no to him?
why can he jus go out wif his frens and ps me?
for him, im willing to giv up everything.
whereas him?
dun think so bah.
im jus a burden.
or something to kill time when he's bored.
dats wat i feel.

so tired from crying.
im a weakling.

10:00 AM

pretty fireworks! went out wif jess, aisya and gloria in the afternoon! caught money no enough 2!

quite nice. except some parts which are quite stupid. but overall storyline is good and touching! :D

as expected i cried lahhh. so touching lah. jess cried too. haha.

had dinner at pasta mania after movie!

wheee! long time since i last had it.

nice nice :D

wanted to go night safari at first but was quite late.

and xinni told me dere's fireworks so we decided to go.

it was suppose to start at 9?

but actual time dat it starts is aorund 930!

the whole fireworks last for 15 mins.

and its ultra pretty.

too bad p is not wif me :(

from left, gloria, jess, me, aisya

fyi, aisya and gloria are sitting on our laps!

gloria is lying down on our laps lah!!!

camwhore alot as u can see. haha. went home after we finish camwhoring!

reached home at 11 plus. had a great day wif the girls! :D

love you all lah.

cecillia was at dere too. but wif her other frens.

so she came over for some camwhoring session and left wif her frens. :D

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

9:48 AM

wow. my blog jumped about 40 hits today!
is dere really 40 ppl visiting or jus ppl refreshing for fun?
hahhahaha.
i wonder. but pls do tag i'll try to reply. :D
meeting p tml.
lyk finally.
havent seen him for 3 days alr.
miss him so much!

i dreamt that i was outside ur hse waiting for u
cause ur parents were at home.
and after i waited for quite a long time
you told me u have to go out wif them.
and then u tried finding an excuse not to go so as to accompany me.
but u failed and u cried cause
u felt bad for not being able to be here wif me.
how precious dat tear was.
i cried wif u in my dream and almost in reality.
cause i noe dat it would neva happen in real life.
i wake up from my dream getting all upset and frustrated.
cause its jus a dream and i have to wake up and go to work.
i miss you so much.
think of u so much.
i dun even noe how the hell i get myself into this state.
i have no idea.
i guess karma is working on me.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

7:47 AM

MICHELLE

nice blog that i chanced upon while blog hopping.
a teenage mommy and coping well.
so touched by her stories.
i think she's damn brave lah.
and makes me feel lyk having a baby too.
awwwwwwww.
pls help by clicking on her nuffnang ads.
so dat she can earn money from it.
jus a click so no harm rite(:
thanks alot! :D

Monday, August 18, 2008

10:21 AM

l shall summarise my interesting weekend(:

FRIDAY
friday night, p came to stay over after his drinking session.
he is such a pig.
straight away fell asleep after bathing =/

SATURDAY
sat night, jouren came to fetch me after his work :D
so honoured, im the first girl to ride his bike sia.
hahahahhaa.
im seriously quite scared.
cause first time i get a ride from someone other than my dad.
went cousin's pub to drink.
then when closed, jouren send me home.
even scarier. cause he abit high alr. =/
we drink 1 more bottle at my hse here de coffee shop then home.
it was lyk 4 plus alr =/

SUNDAY
morning went out wif jac to view his new puppy!
a shetland sheepdog!

met p in the evening for shopping at vivo(:
he was late for half hr! =/
he accompanied me get my stuff and then we had dinner at sarawak noodles.
after eating slacked at the sky park.
pretty scenery!
and we managed to saw a little fireworks coming from sentosa! :D
it was a very low fireworks but am still quite happy :D
home-ed around 10.

i finally get my slippers after saying for dunno how long! :D
pretty right. so colourful. haha.

got my eyeliner from missha oso.
the lipgloss is damn ugly on my lips! :(

finally, a nice picture of zayden sleeping stomach up!
he's enjoying himself obviously. haha.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

9:35 AM

very nice song. although it is some time ago. this song is so true and so very nice.

p came over after his attachment. slack for awhile and goes to town.
caught meet dave at ps. had a very rushed dinner cause we were rushing for movie.
had pasta in this restaurant call the indulge at the cathay.
quite nice(: like the spices(:
everything done in lyk half hr!
the movie is nice.
quite hilarious.
should go watch.
i rank it 4/5! :D

Saturday, August 9, 2008

1:44 AM

ytd only work for 2 hrs.
cause not much customer.
so when boss left, sing karaoke! :D
havoc.and make some cocktails to try :D
tried making my own version of sex on the beach and it failed terribly =/
was suppose to put cranberry juice but i added fruit punch by mistake =/
then jouren make for me tequila sunrise.
i oso dun think its nice. haas. think the best is still vodka sprite.

waited for cousin and jouren, jimmy to finish work then headed down to cousin's pub at cantonment there.
saw efa! :)
cousin treat me a jug of beer(:
drink a few glass of beer and i was abit high.
haas.
then cousin send me to bq to find my fren.

i love night life.

1:17 AM

hais. fuck. its officially over.
so much for looking forward to this sat date.
and my long awaited dream of watching fireworks wif bf.
it will never be again.

the first time it hurts so much.
tears cant help but flow.
its lyk i have unlimited supply of tears.
i can cry anytime anywhere.

i did so much, sacrificed so much for him.
but he never gets it.
he never appreciates it.
i cant live in this self denial anymore.
telling myself that he loves me but only has no time for me.
cause its not true.

Friday, August 8, 2008

9:55 PM

went sentosa wif p on monday! :D
finally get to suntan!
met p at vivo and took monorail in.

went palawan beach. cause i dun wanna queeze wif ppl in siloso.
then p started saying dat siloso got no pretty girls and handsome guys! -.-

tan for around 1 hour plus then we left.
went vivo for lunch.
had asian kitchen.
p says its not as nice as wat i claim it to be =/
then went his house for mahjong wif his classmates(:
they are all nice ppl! :D

that's charcoal(: p's rabbit!

we play from 4 pm till next day 8am!!!
ordered canadian pizza for dinner on monday.
and most of us got a bad stomachache the next day! =/

slept at his house after mahjong.
then evening time went to cathay for dinner!
and we had desserts after dat.
ben and jerry!!! :D yummy!!! :D

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

10:04 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN DEAREST! :D

as i was randomly browsing through blogs i came upon colleen's blog.

she and her bf is so sweet!

really jealous lah.

and at the same time, wish her all the best(:

im here at 0107 blogging and there's a freaking sociology test tml which i havent finish studying =l

i should be a good girl lyk bf and mug hard.

but i jus cant seem to find the motivation to do dat :(

i thought poly life would be much easier and relax than sec sch but it is the exact opposite!

i jus wish to spend everyday wif bf and slack my whole life away.

cant wait for this week to end and celebrate bf's birthday(:

hope he's not meeting his fren this weekend so he can meet me.

i wanna spend 1 whole day wif him which i havent done so in dunno how many 214345545 days?!

okay, im exaggerating. but thats how i feel.

i miss bf!

Monday, August 4, 2008

11:05 AM

the chocolate cake(:

the icing(:

HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY DEAREST(:
you're so old alr!
haha. hope you like the 'surprise' i gave you(:

first time i did so much for someone.
went ester house to borrow oven to bake cake!
her parents are ultra friendly! :D
her mother help me alot!
thanks aunty! :D (if she ever sees this)

anw, i troubled ester alot.
keep on asking her to go down wif me to buy ingredients!
haha. firstly i forgot the box then i forgot the milk -.-

so after baking slack at her hse till 11 plus then left for p's hse to surprise him(:

waited half hr outside his hse till 12 am then called him to come out and collect his present(:
thought we could have lyk spend a little time together to eat the cake and all.
but his house gate was lock! idiotic :(
was kinda disappointed.
cabbed back home after dat.

hope dar had a wonderful and memorable birthday(:
*ily

Saturday, August 2, 2008

10:15 AM

i miss p alot alot :(
didnt see him for 3 days and it feel so freaky long!
but luckily i'll get to see him tml(:
cant wait(:

p's been ultra mean lately!
he says im fat :(
seriously need to lose some weight :(

baby, i dunno whether u'll read this.
but i hope you'll put in more effort.
i noe its a busy and stressful time for you now
and im trying my best to accomodate you.
so please, show me more love and give me more attention?
*ily

baby'sbirthday is on the 5th!
but stupid school ends at 5! :(

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