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Monday, July 28, 2008
8:52 AM fucking depressed and demoralised :( shouldnt have went for training today since shihui wasnt gg. knew coach is gonna train the main players for pesta. so wat for i go. felt like the only one being left out and neglected :( starting of training was alright. until she make us do half court. i wasnt put into play at all for around an hr. she only ask me stand at the back to be lyk the "defender" but in actual fact, i dun have to do anything. she's jus trying to make it less obvious that she's heck-caring me. lyk whatever lah! fuck! feel lyk quitting. cause there's no future being in nyp netball. hais. tell me what should i do? i need someone to talk to now. was so loking forward to talking to p on the phone and pour out all my sorrows to him. but when i called he didnt pick up. think he's asleep :( hais.life is bad when im not wif him :( even him oso ask me to quit netball. hais. got 3 papers next week and i have nt started studying at all. fuck. so gonna suffer from depression soon. Sunday, July 27, 2008
3:42 AM  pooor bear bear. zayden's toy. haha. he was playing tug-o-war wif sis den the leg came off!so rough lah both of them. haiyo!  century egg porridge(: deserts! mango pudding is loved<3> shark fins soup(:
 favourite of the day! paper wrapped sotong! yummy! we had 3 plates of it :D had beijing duck, paper wrap chicken and xiaolongbao! :D but still prefer crystal jade de(: we ate alot for 3 persons! $120++! OMG. FAT! :( went sim lim square to get pay for IT fair after dat. yay! $340! :D gotta study soon cause exam im so looking forward to end of exams and september hols! :D then p will have more time for me(:Thursday, July 24, 2008
8:34 AM  trng was quite fun before the coach comes. i tied keshia's hair for her(: so chio lor. haha! the above pic is the prove :D anw, as expected i didnt get into the team for pesta. but nvm, i'll train harder for the coming polite games. alll the juniors should train harder so dat we all get in! thanks jess for lending me your shoulder(: yongjun for providing me the sad songs(: gloria and huishan for the chocs(: ash, amanda and keshia for cheering me up(: i jus think my life totally sucks. nothing is gg my way. r/s wif p is so unstable. he doesnt even have time for me now. all he does is study and study :( i noe i should be understanding but its really too much. sometimes not even a sms from him. do u have any idea how sad i was? how depressed and emo i was? 2 days without seeing u feels lyk months and years for me :( i miss you so badly :( Sunday, July 20, 2008
8:52 AM its a sunday. and guess wat time i woke up? . . . . . . . . . . . . . 7AM!!!!! miracle right(: met jess at serangoon mrt and went braddell heights cc. watched p kick soccer! :D it was some street soccer competition. the match time is damn weird. first match 1010. then 2nd one is lyk 12 plus?! p was great even though they didnt win(: i so love watching him play even though im not a very soccer person. i dun even noe the basci rules. hahahahhahaha. went to play pool wif p and his group of soccer frens at toapayoh. they are such a funny bunch of ppl! had a great laugh(: p is good in pool! :D i shall learn and get better cause i seriously suck in it. play until around 6 then we all split up. me and p went for dinner at koufu then he accompany me take train till dhoby ghaut(: my back is sunburnt!!!! then got the shirt tanline =/ and and and i think jess gonna love me so damn much! :D cause i was such a nice fren! :D hahahahahhahaa. right jess? (: oh and p is coming back school tml! :D no more attachment! :D which means, i may see him in school more often? (hope so) since we're both in shs i hope i bump into him more often(: Thursday, July 17, 2008
8:01 PM had a terible nightmare. which woke me up crying. i dreamt that daddy dun wan us anymore ='( and the feeling is just so real and it hurt so much. i use to have this kind of dreams when i was younger. mayb cause that time i was trying to get use to my parents divorce. but why am i having it again now? i guess my insecurities is surfacing again =( how i wish p is here to wipe away my tears and hug me tight :( Tuesday, July 15, 2008
6:48 AM training on monday! damn hilarious! :D training is so fun now. after getting to know them better(: audrey has chalks so we drew on the court(: so cute lah! :D selection on monday for pesta sukan carnival! hope i can get in =x but i doubt so, we got so many strong shooters! p waitied a long time for me on tues! sorry sweet! p came over and slack and we had dinner together(: time seems to pass so fast whenever im wif him :( Sunday, July 13, 2008
10:08 AM i jus so love spending time with him(: sweet(: watched 10 promises to my dog! ultra nice! go watch! :D jus make me fall deeper in love wif my zayden! :D cant imagine wat if 1 day zayden were to leave me :( i'll be so bloody sad lah :( cried a river and p wipe it for me and gave me hugs(: have been spending the past 5 days wif p and i really treasure the time together(: stayed out wif p to drink on fri after work. then slack the whole day on sat and went town to collect my phone! :D p walk me to far east then i took bus to work(: work is jus so freaking boring lah. :( rather spend time wif p =P went out wif p to vivo jus now. saw this really cute puppy chowchow! look lyk teddy bear lah! so ultra cute! :D window shop and we had sarawak noodle. quite nice(: good recommendation from p(: then slack at sky park. jus love spending time wif p. even though we're doing nothing(: i really hope we can stable down alright. i miss u lyk crazy :( cant wait for next week to come so i can see u in sch! :D i have not study for my bio sci test tml! im alr prepared to flunk :( i know nth at all lahhhh :( Thursday, July 10, 2008
8:07 AM HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY ZAYDEN!! MUMMY LOVE YOU LOTS(: thank you for all the time u spent wif us. all the laughter and the joy. :D your cute action neva fail to put a smile on my face. and your love for me have neva faded. mummy may have little time for u. but u should noe mummy loves u lots(: more than anything on earth. love you baby, cutie boy, darling, fat fat boy! :D Thursday, July 3, 2008
7:53 AM OMG! MY PHONE SPOIL!! the screen is totally cannot see anything de lor! so sad. have to send for repair! damn lazy lehhh. oso cannot upload pictures into my com! AND AND, SIS GONNA BE BACK FROM OBS TML! dad said the teachers called saying that she fell down and i think they send her to hosp or something =/ think she's alright bah if nt she will be home by now. somehow i feel dat its a wrong choice once again. i dun feel the love and security. hmmm. tell me wat to do! |
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