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Monday, December 8, 2008
1:36 PM it all ended. yeah, everything. after all that i've done, what i got back was, you've tried your best, but something is missing. thanks for showing me how unreliable love can be. how things can fucking go wrong in jus half an hour. mayb if u lied to me again, i'll believe you. even i noe it will be another lie, i still chose to believe you. but no, you didnt even bother to explain. must less comfort me. i believed you. and trust all that i have in you. i feel lyk a fool, giving all dat i can. and yet, it still turn out to be this ending. i wish i can be strong, lyk all the other girls out dere. jus end it wif dignity and pride. but i cant, im such a loser. things kept on replaying in my mind. i cant even slp in peace. how i wish it was jus a nightmare. and when i wake up everything will be back to normal. you'll still be dere and i'll still think im the only one. lyk wat they said, i've been living in self denial. and yes, i would rather be. at least i will still be happy and you will still be dere. i dun wish to face this ugly world alone. i wish you were still here. to share my day and joy and happiness. or to feel the hurt in me and comfort me. i need your hug, your reassuring voice. telling me its all ok, and you still love me the most. i need you to wipe away my tears, and ask me not to cry. say you feel hurt that i cried. say dat you do care. how could things go so wrong. we were still happy and laughing jus awhile ago. i wish i wasnt so curious, i wish i hasnt seen the msg. i rather live in self denial. i rather you lied to me than for me to face this pain alone. i wish i was strong. i've expected it all along. its not really a shock to me. so why cant i face it wif my head held up high and say its ok? i've repeated this scenario over and over again in my head, so why, when it comes to reality i cant do it. i really cant handle this pain anymore. its too much. i wish i can jus drop dead on the spot. or to slp and nv wake up. then i will not have to bear wif this pain. every single thing remind me of you. every single thing u said are repeated over and over in my head. all the promises you gave, where did it go? all the things you said, did you really mean it? wat have i done to deserve this? |
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